From the title of this post, you probably think I’ve fallen off the deep end. Such a heavy title for a Tuesday morning. Nope, what I am referring to is the absence of light. Specifically, the dark, cool mornings that I choose to walk in. I work at a university and I am surrounded by lovely walking paths. There is a botanical garden, a duck pond, an eco-system complete with futuristic looking pods and a gorgeous orange grove. These are best seen by the light of day, but I choose to walk in the dark.
It’s true, I am a little self-conscious when it comes to exercise. I don’t look pretty while doing it and I have been known to trip and make unpleasant faces when I am in a really bad mood. I once heard a person on Oprah say that she walked in a cemetery because the dead don’t care. I totally understood what she meant, To walk without judgment and to just meander along without worrying about how you look doing it? Bliss. That is why I walk in the dark.
Plus, I love the smells of the morning. And yes, sometimes when I walk past the University Club I smell bacon which has the ability to infuriate and thrill me all at once. Not sure what that says about me.
No, for me the darkness of the morning signals the beginning of not just a new day, but a new…anything. It’s hopeful and comforting and even though I groaned as I stepped into my shoes (I am such a whiner) there was a tiny piece of me that really wanted to hit the road.
Does that mean it’s getting easier? I am only into week 2 of walking but today I did notice a little less reluctance to get it done. I can’t say I will feel that way every day but I was surprised to feel that way today. In your head, when you decide to walk for 10, 15 or 45 minutes, you don’t feel as if you are accomplishing all that much but it all adds up and it’s got to be better than doing nothing, right? Walking may not transform my body overnight but I have to believe that it’s doing me good somewhere or I’d stretch out on my office floor and take a nap on my hardly used yoga mat.
Yep, I’ve done that.
One step at a time, people. One step at a time.